The day after I wrote that last post I found an essay I’d written for the 50th anniversary of the “This I Believe” project.  It’s called “The Rock and The Hard Place: An Essay on Faith and Change.”  I never submitted it because it’s about three times too long.  But, it was just what I needed to find the day after my last post because it made me remember what it is that I truly believe. 

“I believe that there are only two motivators in life – fear and love.”

That’s what I wrote in 2005 and that’s what I believe today.  In 1991 I saw a movie called “Defending Your Life.” The premise is that life on planet Earth is dominated by fear and the goal is to live beyond your fears. If, after death, your life shows that you overcame your fear then you get to “move on” to become a member of the greater universal community. If not, you repeatedly return to Earth until you become suitable material for universal citizenship

In the movie, Rip Torn plays Bob Diamond, the defense advocate for a person who had died, Daniel Miller, played by Albert Brooks. Bob explains the situation to Daniel: “Being from Earth as you are, and using as little of your brain as you do, your life has pretty much been devoted to dealing with fear.” Daniel still doesn’t believe it until Bob makes it personal.

Bob Diamond – “Did you ever have friends whose stomachs hurt?”

Daniel Miller – “Every one of them.”

Bob Diamond – “It’s fear. Fear is like a giant fog. It sits on your brain and blocks everything. Real feeling, true happiness, real joy, they can’t get through that fog. But you lift it, and buddy you’re in for the ride of your life.”

I’ve decided to step out of the fog and onto the rollercoaster and ride Mexico for all it’s worth.